the fear of 'not enough'

There are many advantages to being self employed - being your own boss, being able to work at night if it's a day when it's better to be out for a walk, making your own decisions about what you do and who you work with etc etc, but one of the less easy parts is that you are dependant on yourself actually doing something in order to get your income.  Those days of ringing up sick and this not affecting our pay check are gone! 

Many self-employed people find it very hard to say no to offers of work, even if they are really busy, because there is a worry that the lean period may be round the corner.  In this snowy time I am faced with more of a dilemma -  if  I cancel a group, I am then obliged to repay those who have paid  upfront...

Having been forced to stay at home a lot, I have been lucky enough to discover Brene Brown, one of the many insightful woman who are making the headlines at the moment.  Her message is one of the need to embrace vulnerability in order to live a wholesome life.  The generalised concept of 'not enough' is almost epidemic in the western world these days, and it is this that drives many of us to unhealthy life styles.  My own two major feelings of not being good enough, and of not having enough money have influenced every aspect of my life.   When snow keeps me at home I worry about the money, and the not being good enough sops me promoting my new work.

Second to the 'not being good enough' is the 'fear of failure'; again an incredibly common affliction; and yet we all know that every 'successful' person has failed probably more times than anyone.  Gosh isn't it just so extraordinarily complex being human!!

Once this snow and ice has thawed, both in and around me .... watch out there maybe a lot of sounding opportunities coming your way...!